Trust me, I did try
I tried harder than you know.
Yet you don't see me.
It will be alright
Someday, but not this moment.
Right now my heart hurts.
I think this is wrong
Not how it's supposed to be
This world can be cruel.
(tanka - 5,7,5,7,5)
And I'm well aware
I think too much about you.
But...
I watch as fall creeps
Closer with each passing day.
It’s my silent scourge.
And it is here now.
Amber leaves on my doorstep.
It knocks politely.
I tell it, Piss off!
It does not leave. It waits.
It knows I will submit.
After all, it promises
Pumkpin pie, hot cocoa, sweets.
It is inevitable.
(seriously. I fed her a chunk of potato and the next thing I knew she has both feet In my soup and is spilling it on my lap. I dropped it and ran. I watched fearfully from inside as the horde descended. When they dispersed, the bowl was empty.)