Learning101
In the Brooder
- May 10, 2022
- 20
- 18
- 46
I feel I need to have a closure in life. My baby - ah girl passed away today at 7:00am.
Thank you baby for giving me the best two years of my life. I missed the way you walk when I bring in your breakfast with your favorite mealworms. Missed when you preened your feather everytime I put you down, as if protesting that I had ruffled your feathers. Missed when you play in the water. Missed how you would peck my toes when I didn’t give you enough mealworms. Missed how you would come to the kitchen when I was preparing your breakfast. Missed how you would nap with your head tucked in your feather by the sliding doors. Missed the fun time we had at the waterfall. Missed how you would just minding your business as if whatever happened out there, there nothing to do with me. Missed you dearly. And I know all the good memories I had with you will eventually become a blur as time passes.
wish you would get reincarnated into a better form and be placed in someone’s house who know how to be a good mama. Who knows how to take care of you. Hope we would cross path again and if there a time in future again, come to me and be my girl.
I’m sorry that I’m not a good mama.you were under tube feeding for 2 and a half day. I know I should have sent you in on Sunday but I didn’t because I felt you were showing sign of anxiety. I should have tubefed you earlier but I was too coward to do it. I thought as long as I put you in a stressless situation you would slowly start eating yourself. Just when I had decided to tube feed you the next morning when I came back from work, you had decided to leave me.
I am sorry for not being a good mama. Life is about dealing with losses. This is the third loss I dealt in my life. I felt very stupid very irresponsible. I don’t know what to do to absolve my sin, my sin of not taking good care of you. If I’m not blinded by my own stupidity , you might still be with me.
Sorry baby. Sorry
Thank you baby for giving me the best two years of my life. I missed the way you walk when I bring in your breakfast with your favorite mealworms. Missed when you preened your feather everytime I put you down, as if protesting that I had ruffled your feathers. Missed when you play in the water. Missed how you would peck my toes when I didn’t give you enough mealworms. Missed how you would come to the kitchen when I was preparing your breakfast. Missed how you would nap with your head tucked in your feather by the sliding doors. Missed the fun time we had at the waterfall. Missed how you would just minding your business as if whatever happened out there, there nothing to do with me. Missed you dearly. And I know all the good memories I had with you will eventually become a blur as time passes.
wish you would get reincarnated into a better form and be placed in someone’s house who know how to be a good mama. Who knows how to take care of you. Hope we would cross path again and if there a time in future again, come to me and be my girl.
I’m sorry that I’m not a good mama.you were under tube feeding for 2 and a half day. I know I should have sent you in on Sunday but I didn’t because I felt you were showing sign of anxiety. I should have tubefed you earlier but I was too coward to do it. I thought as long as I put you in a stressless situation you would slowly start eating yourself. Just when I had decided to tube feed you the next morning when I came back from work, you had decided to leave me.
I am sorry for not being a good mama. Life is about dealing with losses. This is the third loss I dealt in my life. I felt very stupid very irresponsible. I don’t know what to do to absolve my sin, my sin of not taking good care of you. If I’m not blinded by my own stupidity , you might still be with me.
Sorry baby. Sorry
Please be kind to yourself no one is perfect 
