Granny's gone and done it again

[CapricornFarm]

Hi guys.

@Granny Hatchet, so sorry to hear about Tom. Girl. NO GUILT. You have gone above and beyond. I had to make the decision to put my dad in the nursing home where I was working. It was hard but it was best for both of us. I loved (and always will) him dearly. He was my daddy. But he wasn't safe at home alone anymore while I worked and the stress was eating away at me between work and worrying about him setting the house on fire.

I felt guilty till one of the aides who was taking care of him asked his nurse...how did Becky take care of him for three years and work here too? She told him, because she didn't have a choice and had to. Looking back now I can see that it was slowly killing me. Not physically, but emotionally and mentally. You did what was best for him first and for you and your son second so please don't beat yourself up. God bless you.

One of the hardest things you can do. My Aunt spent 6 months with us, until I couldn't stand the stress any more. Then we moved to FL and lived with Mom for a year after Dad died. We had to get rid of all of my Aunt's stuff, Dad's stuff, then finally Mom's stuff. Now they are all gone and I miss them. Actually, the worst part was seeing the dementia getting worse. And dreading the condition happening with me. And now it is.

 

[CapricornFarm]

Hi guys.

@Granny Hatchet, so sorry to hear about Tom. Girl. NO GUILT. You have gone above and beyond. I had to make the decision to put my dad in the nursing home where I was working. It was hard but it was best for both of us. I loved (and always will) him dearly. He was my daddy. But he wasn't safe at home alone anymore while I worked and the stress was eating away at me between work and worrying about him setting the house on fire.

I felt guilty till one of the aides who was taking care of him asked his nurse...how did Becky take care of him for three years and work here too? She told him, because she didn't have a choice and had to. Looking back now I can see that it was slowly killing me. Not physically, but emotionally and mentally. You did what was best for him first and for you and your son second so please don't beat yourself up. God bless you.

You are so strong!

 

[CapricornFarm]

I just told my GC, Do not ever promise to NOT put me in a nursing home. If the time comes that I need care that my loved ones cannot provide for me at home, by all means please feel free to do that! Don't let me be a burden to those at home, let the professionals take care of me. I'm sure I'll be fine having someone wait on me, cook for me, give me my meds as needed, do my laundry ... in short, do for me all the things I've been doing for everybody else all my life. Like @microchick said, no guilt!

My Dad feared the nursing home. But he died a week after open heart surgery, so he never had to. It still hurts me that I couldn't say goodbye to him because we were packing to move to FL to help my parents.

 

[CapricornFarm]

(Skipped from pg 52) 11:20 pm.
Hi guys, I'm not usually here after sundown on Friday, you know that. I'm here to ask prayer and/ or love for my 46-yo DD, the mother of my GC, who was just taken ɓy ambulance to the hospital for possible pneumonia. Was texting her and she reporting feeling absolutely miserable. She lives in TX. Thanks.

Sending heartfelt wishes for her recovery.

 

[Cynthia12]

Yep between the cough and being tired. Of course I am always tired.

Are you sick too? Everyone is sick early this year.

 

[Cynthia12]

Found this and cracked up lol

https://www.buzzfeed.com/daniellaemanuel/diy-creations-bad-execution/

I need the earring plugs.

 

[ShrekDawg]

I need the earring plugs.

Lol

 

[Cynthia12]

It was so cloudy here you wouldn't have seen anything last night. I love laying out in the pasture on a thick blanket all bundled up to keep warm and meteor watch.

I think they are supposed to be visible until the 17th so maybe we will get a clear night before then---just looked at the forecast. Monday night, the only clear night this week.

It's so worth it. I've always been amused and in awe of things of the universe. To think how long that thing has made the rounds! Still, it's dropping pieces. Must be huge. Huge.

 

[Cynthia12]

Hi Granny. I am doing better than you ,but not great. Getting older is no picnic. My depression is giving me issues. Need to spend some time outside if it will warm up and the wind will let up.
Thanks for asking.

Sometimes those drops in moods can stick around for a bit. But..you seem like a person that knows how to get out. Winter, as you know, can get the best of some of us. You've made some changes around yourself. Maybe you need a constant little companion around you indoors. Not sure if you have a cat , or if you're allergic. I'm thinking you have a dog..?

 

[ShrekDawg]

I got glasses today. I don’t know that I like my glasses lol. I might not wear them ever lmao I’m so used to not having them. But maybe it just takes time to adjust or something. I like the look though lol