This morning I lost a baby chick, dont know what happened but I think it got too cold. On the 8th my beautiful baby cat Yuki was ran over. A month ago my cornish X, Biscuits died of overheating (hit 113* that day) A few months ago my first duck, Howard, died when she got her neck caught up in a torn tarp. A month before that I lost another cornish X, Eggs, I think it was unhealthy when I bought it. In the past 3 years I have lost a total of 6 chickens (including the silkie, Biscuits and Eggs). The others were lost to a possum, ran over by a car, and my dog accidently killed one when we first brought them home. I had a baby duckling that died at about a week old but I also think it was sick when I bought it - it wobbled when it walked and this was when I was new with them so I didnt know what to do. My Bearded dragon died last summer because of heat - I had him outside while I was tending chickens... came back and he was gone - this one I take blame for completely (I should have checked him sooner). I once fostered 5 puppies that one of them got sick and died. (They had no mom - she had to be put down). Ive lost plenty of fish (They were years old but so what... they still had years to go) A year ago I also lost my cat Kyo to a car (on the same road that Yuki got hit). Now I do have alot of animals, and I have actually saved alot of animals... but I also seem to have a curse over here...
The baby bird this morning was like a last straw... Now I cant stop crying because... see... Im almost 26 weeks pregnant. I have wanted this for about 3 years or more. My husband and I had even been trying. I had problems getting pregnant. And now that I am all I am thinking now after seeing this baby chicken die this morning is... What if I am cursed?! What if I lose this child? I dont think I can stand the thought of that... Im completely frightened and freaked out. I love all my babies but this is a whole 'nother thing... This is my flesh, my blood, my gift from God and to him...
I dont know I dont really expect anyone to say anything I just really needed to get that out.
The baby bird this morning was like a last straw... Now I cant stop crying because... see... Im almost 26 weeks pregnant. I have wanted this for about 3 years or more. My husband and I had even been trying. I had problems getting pregnant. And now that I am all I am thinking now after seeing this baby chicken die this morning is... What if I am cursed?! What if I lose this child? I dont think I can stand the thought of that... Im completely frightened and freaked out. I love all my babies but this is a whole 'nother thing... This is my flesh, my blood, my gift from God and to him...
I dont know I dont really expect anyone to say anything I just really needed to get that out.
