I wish it didn't bother me! That is mainly what has held me back from putting in the order. It isn't the time or effort, it is the killing part. I can appreciate the fact that you know what the bird has eaten, any meds given, and its overall general health during its life. I think alot of the cancer today comes from our food supply. I just need to get up the guts! Thank You for your insight!
GG--I can totally relate to that. Even though we don't think of our chickens as "pets" I was hesitant to butcher them at first. Fortunately other family members and friends were okay with the killing part. Is there someone who can help you the first time? Hunters and people who grew up on farms are good prospects. The plucking and eviscerating was easier for me. Now, after a few years, I feel that I could do the slaughtering if I had to. Somewhere along the line, my mind has been able to see the chickens more as food than as little animals I care for every day.
It's also important to have a method you're comfortable with. We put our chickens in upside down cones, and the chickens go kind of comatose when upside down. Then a carefully placed slash is quick to kill them. Also you have to remember that the twitching that happens after that is involuntary body response--the chicken is dead and not in pain.
I also always have some laying hens, and I think that helps. While we're raising some chickens for meat, we have others that we can name and know they will be around for a while.