Granny's gone and done it again

[Nomadicus]

Granny I think I get my hip injection about the same time you get your MRI. I'm finally getting the stress test I think Tuesday. Ma keeps the schedule and I think that is what she said. Then a few days later another cardio test that has something to do with the artery in my neck. My neighbor had to have a major something or the other to do with his a year or so ago. Once this is done it's back to ortho with this shoulder. It's on fire when I wake up. My mom went through life with constant pain in hers as it was bone on bone like my hips. After she had a blood clot they wouldn't do surgery on hers so I'm anxious to get mine fixed.

 

[Nomadicus]

On a sad note I was sorry to read about getaclue passing this morning.

 

[pertnear09]

On a sad note I was sorry to read about getaclue passing this morning.

I've been worried about her for some time. Those treatments were pretty rough on her..

 

[Cynthia12]

That's not what she meant at all! (Where I highlighted). She was just observing the contrast - where you are normally cheerful and engaging, she noticed you were withdrawn and subdued. You're not your normal self and she was concerned, that's all. And it's not whining when you share how you feel! Of course you miss Scott! It would be crazy if you didn't. And honestly, they probably do too! Wasn't he their dad/stepdad? They're probably keeping a stiff upper lip and trying to be brave for YOU! Maybe you all need to have a group hug and a good cry together. I remember, after my Calvin died, there were times I would go to my DD and just tell her, I need a hug! I really miss him! And it would help. We'd sit over a cup of tea and share some good memories, maybe a laugh or two ... it helped. Don't be a soldier, Cynthia. Grieving is a process. Let yourself feel what you feel. It's healing. Your kids understand.

Oh I know that isn't what she meant. That isn't Bronwyn at all. That thought was ..all me. And yes Austin is mine and Scott's baby, Bronwyn his wife. Austin and I have held each other after having mentioned a cute memory of dad, hugged and cried. He's told ne he's cried on his own even this year. The pain of losing a loved one, as you know, never leaves us, although time certainly helps us learn of our resilience. To become stronger and learn how to do skills and deal with other difficult situations. To become more compassionate towards others. Now when someone has lost a loved one I can honestly say, I know how you feel.
Blue, I'm sorry I don't recall you talking about Calvin. Former husband, child?
My sister lost three children to the same illness. Encephalitis. One at the age of 19 months. Years later a 4 year old, that same year as him a 7 year old. She had a hard time for years but has come through a strong woman. Three boys are grown now. Two grandchildren have been named after her lost ones.
Going to watch church through zoom today. So thankful I can watch my own church members this way. They kept it when they saw that their are quite a few that benefit with it. We have elderly and some very ill that use it.
Another hot day day. 92. Yesterday got up to 94. Our 80's are heading back this way Tuesday. Then 70's for a couple of days. Then 80's again. Good ol Utah weather.
Love to you all.

 

[Cynthia12]

Yes, thank you. We were only together a short time, from 2000 to 2004, but he was ... very special to me. And yes, I knew he had leukemia, and was terminal, when I married him.

Just now seeing your answer here. A former husband. You're a special person. Have been all along. Sweet spirit indeed. It has brought you to where you are today.

 

[ShrekDawg]

I put on slightly fancier pants lol

 

[Cynthia12]

Morning, no sleep for me either. Don't think I can take this pain longer. MRI isn't til the 27th. Hopefully it will tell me the problem at the least. I just don't know what to do at this point.
I hope everyone is having a good day so far.

I really do know this pain Granny. I had to wait too before my surgery on my shoulder. I'll tell you what..the pain of the surgery was less than the pain before!

 

[Cynthia12]

Doing good. Sorry for your pain, Granny. Glad you're doing good, Shrek. It's cold here this morning. Was 48°, now up to 57. I felt it when I woke up, in my hands, shoulders, hips. Turned on a little space heater by my bed. Cold again tomorrow then back to the 90's. Silly weather, lol. Making bread again today, I think.

Sounds like Utah.

 

[Cynthia12]

On a sad note I was sorry to read about getaclue passing this morning.

Oh I'm so glad you said something. She's been battling that cancer for a long time. Thank you for posting. Will go to that thread.

 

[Nomadicus]

The post getaclue's husband made is in today's "Old Folks thread"

https://www.backyardchickens.com/threads/getaclue-has-passed-away.1639889/