Good for you for doing the right thing for your birds! Don't write off being able to process your own chickens yet. You had to euthanize pet chickens. For me, when I am raising chickens for meat, I raise them with a whole different mindset. I can't say it's easy, but it is easier than processing my old laying hens. I get kind of attached to them. But for my flock management, processing is a part of it. I don't have room to keep adding chickens without subtracting some, too.Thought I might be able to butcher some for food in the future (b4 this experience), but after this year, I know I'm too much of a softee. I'm just glad I was able to do what was needed to end their suffering.